Impulse purchased RPGmaker cause it was 75% off on a flash sale. Not even sure what I am going to do with this...
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make an rpg?
Spend like 4 hours brainstorming ideas for an rpg, then 20 minutes attempting to decipher how to actually make the game, and never, ever come back to it.
Although it took me forever to force myself out of my apartment to drive the five hours home, I am so happy to be home. I grew up in a small town (population:65 when we moved here, current population:169). The stars at night are like nothing you've ever seen before. I can stand on the porch, look at the millions of stars, speak with the owls, and hear the coyotes sing. There is nothing quite like coming home.
Despite resigning over two weeks ago, I was going to see things out at work. I intended to stay until the 17th of December when the office closes for the year. Due to stress, dietary changes, and probably just the fact that I'm totally imbalanced as an individual, I had cleaned out my entire desk last night and brought home all of my stuff. Including the office furniture that I had paid for out of my own pocket.
Today was the last day. I've blissfully joined the ranks of the unemployed.
I wasn't sure about pursuing my holiday wages because, as I'm sure everyone has gathered from a year worth of ranting, my boss isn't exactly a stellar human being in general. I hesitantly proposed my annual leave on my hourly rate, which I thought was fair because it's not like I got overtime or got paid for working weekends or Christmas. My boss has decided to pay me ten weeks on a proper average wage.. a real wage.. which is almost $2k more than I proposed. If he actually pays that out, it'll cover the cost of a couple of courses that I was interested in doing next year because I really need time out of work to unwind and lower my stress levels.
I don't know really know what to think right now. He wanted me to leave on good terms but I certainly wasn't expecting this. I never thought I'd actually quit. I never thought I'd have the strength or courage to. I've had such tremendous support and encouragement, probably far more than I deserve during those really low times. It made the difference in struggling to wake up every morning, the difference in making it through the day. It made a big difference for every single day that I went home in tears and had to resist driving head first into a tree because my life seemed like an endless black hole. I had stopped caring about myself, but others hadn't.
So my rave is for those people. Two especially, that I absolutely cherish because their faith in me and what I'm capable of, is just so amazing. Here's to fresh starts and new opportunities. To changes for the better. To finally accepting that, it really is okay to be a little bit selfish and put myself first.
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Congratulations @Kyrra! You deserve this new change and it was much needed for you. All the best for your new endeavours and here's to a new year of potential student ranting!
"Faded away like the stars in the morning, Losing their light in the glorious sun, Thus would we pass from this earth and its toiling, Only remembered for what we have done."
@Fen being back, and the first conversation I had with him literally had my laughing so hard I fell off my chair!
Now, this wouldn't be a rave without a rant, because my chair broke
Aurora says, "Tharvis, why are you always breaking things?!" Artemis says, "You are so high maintenance, Tharvis, gosh." Tecton says, "It's still your fault, Tharvis."
Last second of the Auburn-Alabama game, score is tied, Alabama makes 57 yard field goal attempt to win the game. It flies high and to the left of the goal post, and is caught by Davis of Auburn, and returned 109 yards for a winning Auburn touchdown!
I just keep thinking of the credits I can buy instead... (2-3 pack a day smoker, I'll be decked out fast!)
That's a lot of packs a day! You going cold turkey? I just quit like a week and a half ago.. the first few days I went through way more nicotine with those stupid e-cigarettes that I ever would have with real cigarettes, just cause I was having munch/twitchty/spas attacks and I needed something to help me get over it. Since then it's been okay. Those are kinda helpful little crutches, I'd say. I was a smoker for about 8 years? and haven't had a real smokey treat since I finished my last pack.
We can start a stop-smoking clan where we can type in AHHHHH iahsflihsdlaihifaihfaoi sdhf I'm having a Nic fit!!!! I JUST WANT A CIGARETTE saaave meeee and we can not judge each other for keyboard bashing ~X(
I just keep thinking of the credits I can buy instead... (2-3 pack a day smoker, I'll be decked out fast!)
That's a lot of packs a day! You going cold turkey? I just quit like a week and a half ago.. the first few days I went through way more nicotine with those stupid e-cigarettes that I ever would have with real cigarettes, just cause I was having munch/twitchty/spas attacks and I needed something to help me get over it. Since then it's been okay. Those are kinda helpful little crutches, I'd say. I was a smoker for about 8 years? and haven't had a real smokey treat since I finished my last pack.
We can start a stop-smoking clan where we can type in AHHHHH iahsflihsdlaihifaihfaoi sdhf I'm having a Nic fit!!!! I JUST WANT A CIGARETTE saaave meeee and we can not judge each other for keyboard bashing ~X(
Cold turkey. I've tried with replacement crap or cutting down, and it just makes me want more - last time I did quit (for what, three years?) was cold turkey. Only way that seems to work for me. Regret starting again, but at least I have an excuse to buy credits! Motivation and all that...
It is a freaking expensive habit. I had a dream that some deep south religious fanatic was having his feet ripped off in this pulley device for the "glory of the lord!" and I shouted at him ... "You're an idiot! Some people would kill to have two perfectly good feet!", then immediately woke up and went "Whoa some people would kill to have two working lungs. I'm a jerk!" Weird reason to feel convicted, but it worked! Maybe I will use my saved up smokey money on credits. I'm liking your reasoning here.
edit I called it a hobby not a habit. Which is almost true.
I just keep thinking of the credits I can buy instead... (2-3 pack a day smoker, I'll be decked out fast!)
That's a lot of packs a day! You going cold turkey? I just quit like a week and a half ago.. the first few days I went through way more nicotine with those stupid e-cigarettes that I ever would have with real cigarettes, just cause I was having munch/twitchty/spas attacks and I needed something to help me get over it. Since then it's been okay. Those are kinda helpful little crutches, I'd say. I was a smoker for about 8 years? and haven't had a real smokey treat since I finished my last pack.
We can start a stop-smoking clan where we can type in AHHHHH iahsflihsdlaihifaihfaoi sdhf I'm having a Nic fit!!!! I JUST WANT A CIGARETTE saaave meeee and we can not judge each other for keyboard bashing ~X(
Cold turkey. I've tried with replacement crap or cutting down, and it just makes me want more - last time I did quit (for what, three years?) was cold turkey. Only way that seems to work for me. Regret starting again, but at least I have an excuse to buy credits! Motivation and all that...
Cutting down doesn't work, but I'd say don't completely write off the replacements - they can make it a lot easier, especially in the first couple weeks. Last time I seriously tried to quit, I went mostly cold turkey, with a little gum swiped from a friend to tide me over through some tough spots. It worked (for three months), but it was tough. When I finally quit for reals I just went the Nicorette route, used it as indicated, and it was a much easier process. Either way, good luck with it!
My beloved favorite awesome aunt had surgery today, and everything seems to have gone as smoothly and by-the-book as possible. She'll be in the hospital for about a week recovering, but Mom says she's alert and doing well. I am exceedingly pleased.
Another kind of electronic cigarette I think. You top it up with some kind of cartridge and you can slowly adjust / decrease the nicotine content to wean yourself off the stuff. I kinda thought of getting a pipe version once for the lulz but both the pipe and e-cig equivalents are illegal here.
At the very least it will address the nicotine addiction problem, but not the actual habit of going through the motions of lighting up which is the real kicker to break.
Liquid nicotine. they aren't bad. Seems like all Navy boys i know use em.
There's evidence that e-cigs are pretty bad long term because of how the liquid nicotine and flavouring is made. They're great short term, but be careful!
Serious? Hrm. I am looking for an alternative/way to quit. Thinking of snagging up some of Camel's SNUS to try, see if I can't make a transition to it, so I'm not always smelling like shit.
Another kind of electronic cigarette I think. You top it up with some kind of cartridge and you can slowly adjust / decrease the nicotine content to wean yourself off the stuff. I kinda thought of getting a pipe version once for the lulz but both the pipe and e-cig equivalents are illegal here.
At the very least it will address the nicotine addiction problem, but not the actual habit of going through the motions of lighting up which is the real kicker to break.
The idea with most nicotine replacement things is to satisfy the addiction while you take care of the other associated habits. Separating the physical addiction from the behavioral habits can be very helpful.
We should get some sort of support thread going for kicking the smoking habit. It looks like a lot of Achaeans have good advice and are willing to share. And seriously, fuck cancer.
Today started off as a really freaky day (no one at my friend's house answered the phone when we went to pick her up, and we were ringing the bell and calling the phones for a good half hour before it turns out everyone was asleep...then on the highway we saw a tyre bounce down the road that had just rolled RIGHT OFF a car), but I've finished all my work early and I'm so restless waiting for my parents to come and pick me up so we can go to the airport and get my brother.
I am pretty excited because I haven't seen him in months! Hurry up time!
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I got my results today. My heart stuff dropped from 25 to 14.2 which is still high, but I am no longer a walking heart attack waiting to happen. My vitamin D levels are looking normal again, and I'm still wasting away at a miraculous pace.
I met my replacement too. She's lovely and I get to spend tomorrow morning with her to go over the advertising software. She told me she really admired me for coming into a job with next to no experience and keeping the place running for two years. I feel so good about leaving and have no regrets.
Now I just have to wait out an hour before I get to visit my dentist. My last two fillings are being done today and that means all the dental work is almost done.
At this rate, I'm going to be an entirely new woman by the new year. So much to look forward to!
(D.M.A.): Cooper says, "Kyrra is either the most innocent person in the world, or the girl who uses the most innuendo seemingly unintentionally but really on purpose."
For the smokers trying to be non-smokers. I went cold turkey on the nicotine but used lollipops to try and deal with the hand to mouth and associated movements that I seemed to crave more than the smoking itself.
If you're really bad, try for a low/non sugar version, because 100 of those a day will be rough on the teeth. You can also crunch them in the really frustrating moments.
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Today was the last day. I've blissfully joined the ranks of the unemployed.
I wasn't sure about pursuing my holiday wages because, as I'm sure everyone has gathered from a year worth of ranting, my boss isn't exactly a stellar human being in general. I hesitantly proposed my annual leave on my hourly rate, which I thought was fair because it's not like I got overtime or got paid for working weekends or Christmas. My boss has decided to pay me ten weeks on a proper average wage.. a real wage.. which is almost $2k more than I proposed. If he actually pays that out, it'll cover the cost of a couple of courses that I was interested in doing next year because I really need time out of work to unwind and lower my stress levels.
I don't know really know what to think right now. He wanted me to leave on good terms but I certainly wasn't expecting this. I never thought I'd actually quit. I never thought I'd have the strength or courage to. I've had such tremendous support and encouragement, probably far more than I deserve during those really low times. It made the difference in struggling to wake up every morning, the difference in making it through the day. It made a big difference for every single day that I went home in tears and had to resist driving head first into a tree because my life seemed like an endless black hole. I had stopped caring about myself, but others hadn't.
So my rave is for those people. Two especially, that I absolutely cherish because their faith in me and what I'm capable of, is just so amazing. Here's to fresh starts and new opportunities. To changes for the better. To finally accepting that, it really is okay to be a little bit selfish and put myself first.
Losing their light in the glorious sun,
Thus would we pass from this earth and its toiling,
Only remembered for what we have done."
Artemis says, "You are so high maintenance, Tharvis, gosh."
Tecton says, "It's still your fault, Tharvis."
My work here is done.
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One of the symptoms of an approaching nervous breakdown is the belief that one's work is terribly important
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I just quit like a week and a half ago.. the first few days I went through way more nicotine with those stupid e-cigarettes that I ever would have with real cigarettes, just cause I was having munch/twitchty/spas attacks and I needed something to help me get over it. Since then it's been okay. Those are kinda helpful little crutches, I'd say. I was a smoker for about 8 years? and haven't had a real smokey treat since I finished my last pack.
We can start a stop-smoking clan where we can type in AHHHHH iahsflihsdlaihifaihfaoi sdhf I'm having a Nic fit!!!! I JUST WANT A CIGARETTE saaave meeee and we can not judge each other for keyboard bashing ~X(
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I had a dream that some deep south religious fanatic was having his feet ripped off in this pulley device for the "glory of the lord!" and I shouted at him ... "You're an idiot! Some people would kill to have two perfectly good feet!", then immediately woke up and went "Whoa some people would kill to have two working lungs. I'm a jerk!"
Weird reason to feel convicted, but it worked! Maybe I will use my saved up smokey money on credits. I'm liking your reasoning here.
edit I called it a hobby not a habit. Which is almost true.
Worked great when I had to stop cold turkey. No smoking on submarines anymore.
At the very least it will address the nicotine addiction problem, but not the actual habit of going through the motions of lighting up which is the real kicker to break.
At the very least it will address the nicotine addiction problem, but not the actual habit of going through the motions of lighting up which is the real kicker to break.
The idea with most nicotine replacement things is to satisfy the addiction while you take care of the other associated habits. Separating the physical addiction from the behavioral habits can be very helpful.
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I met my replacement too. She's lovely and I get to spend tomorrow morning with her to go over the advertising software. She told me she really admired me for coming into a job with next to no experience and keeping the place running for two years. I feel so good about leaving and have no regrets.
Now I just have to wait out an hour before I get to visit my dentist. My last two fillings are being done today and that means all the dental work is almost done.
At this rate, I'm going to be an entirely new woman by the new year. So much to look forward to!
If you're really bad, try for a low/non sugar version, because 100 of those a day will be rough on the teeth. You can also crunch them in the really frustrating moments.
The voice of Melantha, Goddess of the Seasons, echoes amid the rustle of leaves, "That's the censored version."