So I'm not really sure where to start or how to best go about this so I'll probably just ramble and then spoiler and tldr at the end.
So as most of us who are student do, I was quite absent from Achaea around midterms. That's fine, people knew that was happening, no big.
Immediately after midterms, my grandfather was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer and a couple weeks later he passed.
Then I got hit by a car and I was in the hospital for about a week and then in and out for monitoring for about two more weeks. I had a bad reaction to some pain killers and they took me off all my other meds in case it was caused by those. This included my anti-depressants.
So depressed, in pain, freshly dead grandfather and now behind on courses, I kinda forgot about Achaea. It just wasn't really on my mind.
And I guess that's what I'm writing this to talk about. I'm sorry for that. I took on a leadership role in the game, and that comes with responsibilities. And I let some of you down on that front by going MIA. Things have been getting better for a while now but the feelings of shame I have at disappearing without any sort of notice have kind of kept me away. I am 100% positive that the people I worked with in the Shield kept everything going great but still, you all deserved to at least know where I went, or even that I was going to be gone. (
@Kandra,
@Aerek,
@Hosko,
@Lorielan)I miss this community though, I miss it a lot and I'd like to come back, as much as I dread piecing my reflexes together onto my new computer (old one was a 'cushion' between me and the car) but to be honest, I'm not certain if I should come back as Kenway. I just don't know how to explain his sudden disappearance from a fairly major role. It may be time to retire him, though I really hate the thought of it.
So uh, TLDR;
-I'm sorry that I disappeared on anyone that noticed my absence. I feel terrible. Things happened but I should have let someone know somehow and that's on me.
-If anyone can help me think of a way to explain this absence in character for Kenway, I would really appreciate the help but if not, we may see the last of him soon.
-Also I really missed all of you.
-(Most of you.)
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Limb Counter -
Fracture Relapsing -
"Honestly, I just love that it counts limbs." - Mizik Corten
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I doubt anybody worth the time will make that much fuss about it.
- With sharp, crackling tones, Kyrra tells you, "The ladies must love you immensely."
- (Eleusian Ranger Techs): Savira says, "Most of the hard stuff seem to have this built in code like: If adventurer_hitting_me = "Sarathai" then send("terminate and selfdestruct")."
- Makarios says, "Serve well and perish."
- Xaden says, "Xaden confirmed scrub 2017."
- Limb Counter - Fracture Relapsing -
"Honestly, I just love that it counts limbs." - Mizik Corten
Sure, it came at an inconvenient time, and it sucks to be that guy that got leadership and then had to go dormant, but I never held that against you, and neither should anyone else.
I knew about some of the stuff going on in your life, but never knew you were hit by a car. Knowing that, I'm just glad you're still breathing.
Just swan back and look surprised when people ask where you've been 'I was in the pub... '
People that appreciated you before will likely still appreciate you. People that didn't like you will just use it as one more reason why they dislike you. Don't sweat it, just get back on the horse.
Even if you retire you will still end up with Shield and rock on your head. Don't retire man.
Damn the curse of the Shield Wall.
Achaea loves you. You're not allowed to retire. Banish the thought.
1. Omgbbq are you okay? Ehugs and crossed fingers and omg feel better please?!?
2. Always fun to have a grand adventure in the north/on an island.
3. I hope you don't retire, but if you choose to it's okay.
4. I have some of the things that you helped me with on coding, I can send you the info at any time just poke at me and I can send it to you on skype, and hopefully that will help a bit. Just be warned, I'm still healing out of my recent surgery and sometimes am a bit loopy.
I had the same kind of problem as you about a year ago. I was playing MkO at the time and working a full time job, yet me being me, I always found lots of time for MUDs. I ran into some problems and had no more full time job, but had constant doctor appointments/surgeries and lots of loopy drugs to be taking.
I'll tell you this from experience(my character was not very liked), no matter how hated or liked the character you're playing is, you'll be accepted back in whether your RP reason for being gone is good or not. The reason you've been gone is all up to you, and if people don't like your reasoning, they can .. Well, to put it blunt, they can suck it.
Ultimately, the decision to keep playing a single game is your choice, and your choice alone. Sure, you'll have influences from anyone you ask(Whether it be asking people you know outside of the game and they say you should spend less time doing it or if it's people IC who say to stay), but the choice is still yours and no matter what you choose, you shouldn't feel bad about your decision.
I never knew your character on Tolan or on any previous characters from in the past but I can say pretty confidently(from experience), that what ever your choice is, and whether people agree or not, you just need to be happy about it.
Retiring is a cool function that I also put to use after my time on MkO(and my previous characters here), and it's great. I love the ability to start a new character and still have at least some of the worth from everything you've done in the past and all the money you've put into the games.
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Tl;DR - Do what you want
Life happens, we all understand that, and we'll all be here when you're ready to come back. You don't owe anyone a reason or explanation.
Penwize has cowardly forfeited the challenge to mortal combat issued by Atalkez.
I don't remember anymore, but the line went something close to that. Truck maybe? I always thought of it as something similar to @Cain's 'throw a laptop out the window', stuff.
But no, the official story is hit by a bus, in fact.
And Kenny, so glad to hear you're okay, bub. Keep breathing and being your awkward self. You'll figure it out, I'm sure.
That love soon might end You are unbreaking
And be known in its aching Though quaking
Shown in this shaking Though crazy
Lately of my wasteland, baby That's just wasteland, baby
I'm just honestly glad you're alive. Life is too short to be worrying about small things like this.
Shit happens. Video game will be here.
edit: Or ran a red light. Or broke a road law. Or cut the bus off. Or just stole the bike and was fleeing the scene. Or did it on purpose in hopes to sue, but then got sued faster than they could sue, so basically got screwed over
eta: grammar