Hi there

Talamond

I'm not making a new thread because I think this is terribly important or unique. I am making a new thread because I don't want to cloud the other, purpose-made threads with my personal drama.

I recently lost the love of my life. Or at least the current love of my life. Either way, it hurts. I was no angel, and neither was she. I do feel we could have made it, but life is life, and sometimes this is just how it goes.

Something I have come to learn over the course of the breakup process is that I have a tendency to put all my eggs in one basket, to borrow the phrase. The people I fall for tend to be my best friends at the time, which isn't a bad thing, but it does mean that if it doesn't work out, there is a huge void in my life. I intend to rectify this moving forward. Though I am a textbook introvert, which means my energy is spent on other people and regained when I'm alone, I know that no man is an island. I can't sit here and claim to be empathetic while snubbing people who reach out to me.

To that end, I am reaching out to the Achaea community in general and pathetically asking for love and friendship. Yeah, it's pretty pathetic. I get it. I ask that you do understand that as a veteran, my closest friends are scattered across the whole world. I'm not trying to say "wah wah, served my country, have sympathy". I'm just stating the facts. I need to branch out. I need to connect with those who have tried to connect with me.

There are many of you who have actually reached out to me in the past, in game, and I have not reciprocated. You know who you are, and I extend my deepest apologies to you. It's not because you weren't worth my time. It's all on me. I am so sorry. Don't think I didn't know. You are all amazing people, and you deserve more than what I gave you.

So, on a practical level: I play Minecraft on Aralaya's server (I don't care what character you are now, you're still Aralaya shut up), I have a Steam account, and I have a particular fondness for horror games and movies, but only those that explore the deeper philosophical concepts of the nature of existence. I prefer the first Alien over Aliens, for example, and Alien Isolation should have made more money than it did, despite its flaws.

Also, full disclosure: My ex knows I play this game, and she will come across this post. I wrote it with that in mind. Though she's blocked me on everything, I want her to know that I'm not angry. I'm still in her corner. Society will not be kind, but I refuse to compromise my morals. I understand why she did what she did, and I completely validate it, even if others don't. Maybe I'm an idiot. Maybe I should just take the easy path and hate her. But I refuse. I'd rather be taken advantage of, than do wrong to another. I really was no angel. While I deserve better than what she gave me, the reverse is also true, and my guilt pains me. If I could reverse my past actions, I would. I just want her to be happy, even if that doesn't involve me.

Anyway, send me your Steam accounts. Please reach out to me. You guys are the one community in my introverted life that have been consistently amazing. I mean, I watch you guys squabble over petty in-game nonsense, but I can tell that if anyone outside the community were to make a criticism, you'd be the first to jump to their defense. You guys really do seem to have the mindset of "I hate them, but I am the only one allowed to do that." And I love that. Hell, I watched Atalkez (sorry for calling you out, man) go from hating Mhaldor to joining them, searching his name on their private Discord, and regretting it. Honestly, it was kind of hilarious to watch at a distance. He's not even mad. You all throw shade at your in-game enemies, but it's less of a genuine hatred and more like a sibling rivalry, and I love it.

I'm not going to give my Steam or Minecraft name here because I'm a lonely introvert who's terrible at communicating with other humans, but if you're interested in interacting with a flawed but well-meaning individual, please reach out to me in private messages. Not in-game, not Discord, but here on the forums, because that's what will get my attention.

And again, you need to understand that I'm not wholly the "good guy" in this situation. I'm not going to reveal details of what went on. For the benefit of my ex, I'll say this: Farrah knows everything, but she doesn't judge. I made sure to paint you objectively. You should talk to her, honestly. (I'm so sorry, Farrah; I know this isn't drama you want in your life.)

So, uh... yeah. Hi there? Hit me up? I love you all, really?

Archaeon

Deal with it like a normal veteran. 



Crippling alcoholism

Torinn

Lol no don't.  Also hi tala!

Zackery

Hey Tala, it's good to see you. That sounds terrible and I'm sorry you're going through that. I play on Aralaya's Minecraft server sometimes too (though I got a lot of stuff blown up last time I played so I stepped away for a bit...), so I'll see you around there.

Caelan

I had a long ass post but it boils down to a) lol @Archaeon - that shit is soooo 2017, and b) if you ever need to talk hit me up in game, on here, or whatever.  I have the clan for vets talk to each other in game (obv OOC clan) but there usually aren't more than 2 of us on at once so.. feel free to leave a post or log note or something...  

Farrah

Play achaea and I will shower you in Dark-but-totally-well-meaning love and affection.

Nyneve

I think I have a Steam account but I don’t really play anything aside from Achaea anymore. Hit me up IG whenever you’re around. 😘

Siduri

Hey, you're alive! Not sure we have much things in common games-wise, but I'm sending you all my best.

Vinzent

I mostly play Warframe over anything I have on Steam.

Atalkez

Talamond said:

I mean, I watch you guys squabble over petty in-game nonsense, but I can tell that if anyone outside the community were to make a criticism, you'd be the first to jump to their defense. You guys really do seem to have the mindset of "I hate them, but I am the only one allowed to do that." And I love that. Hell, I watched Atalkez (sorry for calling you out, man) go from hating Mhaldor to joining them, searching his name on their private Discord, and regretting it. Honestly, it was kind of hilarious to watch at a distance. He's not even mad. You all throw shade at your in-game enemies, but it's less of a genuine hatred and more like a sibling rivalry, and I love it.

Self introspection is a great thing.

Minifie

I’ll throw shade at any of you assholes, but if ya’ll were to hit rock bottom, or life kicked your asses I’ll be in there with my trash-can helmet and beating stick. Only I get to treat ya’ll like crap, and I’ll crack the knuckles of anyone else who tries

Ismay

Come back to Achaea, she said in a menacing, chanting voice. We will hug you, and squeeze you, and call you Talamond-George.

Skye

Haven't heard from you in for-e-ver. Sorry to hear about all the crap goin on in your life

I'm kind of an NPC now, I login, submit designs, afk until timeout if I don't QQ right after. Sometimes I actually play my steam games, but usually I just play puzzle games on my phone now between crocheting and binging netflix. But you can always hit me up on discord.

Talamond

So many of you have reached out to me in private, without judgement. Obviously, others of you have reached out while also posting here.

I have some things I need to take care of, but I will respond to every single one of you, I promise. Just give me some time.

To all of you, thank you so much. I always had faith in this community, but once again, you all surprise. Please keep on being the amazing people you are.

Caelan

No need to reply to me unless you want to chat. It won't hurt my feelings. Just know if you need to, holler at yer boi.

Nicola

As was written in the OP: "My ex knows I play this game, and she will come across this post. I wrote it with that in mind. Though she's blocked me on everything, ..." it is likely that she has you ignored in Achaea, so using this medium to get some kind of message across to her is not appropriate and the above post has been removed and the thread closed.