I owe this community more then I can ever repay

Makaela

Got talked out of a stupid decision by
@Saeva and @Melodie. Going to take a break from achaea until I get my ooc issues straightened out. No clue when that will be as I have no clue where to get the help I need.  
To those who had to deal with my frequent meltdowns I truly apologise.. I did not always used to be this way but it is an issue that has been getting progressively worse.

I still do not care what anyone says I know my RP was extremely sub par. So  sub par there is no one whose rp was worse than mine.

In mean time people who I found enjoyable are in no particular order (Most of you may be able to guess why I found you enjoyable. Some of you maybe not. Others I owe so much not just IC but due to the ooc support that I did not deserve, I was a horrid friend)
@Melodie
@Saeva
@Jaybles
@Shirszae
@Calira
@Aegoth
@Nilee
@Elazar
@Eril
@Jeslyn
@Tibitha
@Siduri
@kitiara
@Carmain
@Cooper
@Ashed
@Trilliana
@Bimnono
@Saramy
@Shara
@Maefeng
@Jonesey
@Allene
@Penwize
@Orzaansyn
@Ruth
@Bronislav
@Dajio
@Caladbolg

Shimi

I'm sorry to hear you won't be around, but I wish you all the best. I hope whatever problems or issues you have you find a good way to tackle and overcome. I only spoke to your character briefly and just the once, but it was enough I was hoping to contact you again.
 Shimi finally had contact with at least one Mhaldorian and was hoping to strike up an acquaintance. 
I hope you flourish and do well and wish you the best!

Ruth

Hope to see you back in Achaea soon!

Khaibit

get head sorted and come back soon

Makaela

I hope to be back soon.. But I can not justify dragging my friends through the drama that I bring lately.  More than likely I will be back before I should be as I love the game and community far to much.  Just trying to stay awa long enough that I find a way to make my episodes become less frequent at least.

Makaela

Logged in to let a few IG friends I do not think Forum know.  One suggested that instead of pulling out completly I just slow down and not try to do what I did when I first played back when I was more emotionally stable.  They might be right that I am simply trying to accomplish to much at once right now. A few others seemed to think this might work as well.

A real life friend told me that while yes my meltdown have become more frequent he believes that Achaea has been a source that is preventing it from having gotten worse faster. 

So I will be back but less often and prolly for awhile doing absolutely nothing while I figure out which goal I want to tackle first. I know for sure getting to at least HR5 is on the list. But its a matter of do I focus on ritualism or warrior stuff first.

Saeva

Just take care of yourself! Promise? 

Makaela

Oh I am still going to seek a head doctor... these past few weeks have made it all to clear I need to see one.

Bluef

We've known each other for a while now, @Makaela. You know I adore you. IC. IRL. All of it. I hope you get to feeling well.

Makaela

Aye @Bluef. I forgot you have forum rights again. Was gonna explain to ya IG but this works too.  I  am going to dial my goals down a few pegs and see if that helps while seeing the ooc help I need.

Siduri

Love ya, gurl. Take care of yourself, it's what matters.

Makaela

Will do and thanks again for the support. One of my jobs has noticed that I am having issues and is trying to help me find affordable help. So hopefully soon I will start working through my issues and be able to play to the extent I would love.